Love, Life and Everything

Lyme disease is a nasty, nasty bug.  When not caught early, it can take a person, and completely transform their personality.  It's not easy to be a person with Lyme.  It is also not easy to be the spouse or caretaker of someone who has Lyme.  The person you once knew, the one you thought you married, is gone.  Destroyed.  Only glimpses of the person he once was are available.  Instead, you get an irrational, angry, sometimes suicidal individual.  They go through depression, which is common with someone with a chronic illness.  But, they also have these bouts of irrational fear, irrational anger, and an irrational need to end it all.  It is incredibly painful to watch the person you thought you knew, act in these strange, sometimes psychotic ways.  But you  have to remember, it's the disease, not the person, that is causing this.  But, sometimes, it's difficult to remember that, when you are trying to figure out what you've done wrong when your partner is seemingly upse

Last night, I was supposed to go see Vanilla Pop play at the Bull O' The Woods.  They ended up canceling because we were supposed to get a big snowstorm.  Well, the giant snowstorm predicted didn't come exactly as planned, we did get snow.  About 3 inches in town, and it's still snowing.  Usually, by this time of the year, everyone is sick of the massive amounts of snow, and all the shoveling and plowing.  But not this year.  This is our first real snow of the winter.  This is the first time we've had to move our cars so they could plow the parking lot.  This is the first time the guy that  plows our parking lot has moved his tractor from its winter location at the front of our building.  This was the first time I saw joy in the faces of those shoveling and sweeping.  3 inches of snow is not much for us, but it is a lot when you go so long without snow.